It's been a week. A week since my birthday. A week since I last saw Melissa. A week that has taken way to long. Days go buy and I can't help but reminisce (butchered that, I know) about the good times. And I think about the bad times too, but they don't seem to be as bad. I get into that mood and want to apologize for everything that I said or did that might have hurt her at anytime in our relationship. I know it won't make things go back to the way they were but, for me, it's a start. I want to call her but I know that would only make things worse. Everyone needs time to heal. Melissa wants time to grow. I'm going to honor that last wish, but I'll let her know I'll always have her back.
If only she wanted me back. Babe, I miss you...
It was my birthday last week. Happy Birthday 'yardie'! It was also a very serious, long work week. Busting deadlines is what I do. I think the added pressure of time makes me think better, but I lose clarity (eccentricity for lucidity). It's also been a week of heartache.
Me and my girlfriend of 3.5 years decided to go our seperate ways. We both have put a lot into making this relationship work, she has decided that its not worth it anymore. I'm not taking it too well. I lost a lot of sleep that week, it's odd when the person you love doesn't walk through the door anymore. All the walls are bare since she had most of the decorations (I kept the furniture, so I'm not destitute). But an apartment is not a home unless you can go home to the one you love. Deep down she is the one for me, and if it takes her 10 years to realize it I will always be there to welcome her back with open arms.
I guess we all get to the point where we want to see what's out there and if something might be better. She is the best thing that ever happened to me and I hope, one day, she feels the same about me. Besides who else would drive 600 miles every other week to see your crazy ass!
This makes #4. 4 hurricanes in a little over a month. While I like attending the hurricane parties at my peoeple's house the lack of continuity is really messing with my thought process, my job, and at the end of the day me. It still doesn't change the fact that I have a project due the 29th. I have a little over two days to plan, get a design and code ready for the next meeting, which unfortunately was not postponed due to the weather.
More work for me!
It's my birthday and I can't believe I've been on this planet for 26 years now. I'm on a new liquid diet. Alcohol, beer, and gatorade. Ph, I also have a big lunch to hold me over.
Atleast thats what its been like for me. The days leading up to my birthday has me drinking, a lot. No nonfunctional alcoholic but I definitely wake up each morning with a buzz and "gentle" hangover. But atleast I'm at work on time dammit!
Let the festivities beging
Boring......a long boring weekend....But I did manage to get some things done. ColdFusion is reinstalled and mostly functional on the server. I have the HDTV hooked up just right, now I can hear the full DD5.1 audio experience that I've been told so much about. I guess the next problem is finding something interesting to watch. I feel like I'm on house arrest, but there is no place that I really need to be. Not yet, at least. I have the urge to buy some gadget or new toy that I can take apart this weekend. For now I'll wait.
I had a discussion with da boss the other day on the benefits and cons of open source development, specifically the IDEs that are available. MS has Visual Studio, Apple has XCode, Linux has Eclipse, and Codewarrior does all three. Really, the list goes on and on with how you want to setup your environment. Me, I'm a PHP, Perl, and sh. Running in .NET clothing. I think .NET is great to work with, as long as you stick to MS and only MS. I try to keep a more open ended approach to my development, but thats not what people want to buy or hear. It's amazing that you can't move between others easily, or you can except the most powerful, business-wise, doesn't like to sit well with others. I find the tools to access DBs in ColdFusion and PHP to be exceptional. The same can't be said about microsoft. you are either Access, SQL server, or Jet. there are plugins and COMS that open it up, but they lack the support and elegance of the MS Solution.
I can see why VS is so popular. MS is practically giving the thing away. Every Xp installation has the necessary tools to become a full fledged Web App/Database/Dynamic server. At home I'm having a harder time of that. ColdFusion runs great from the command line, and if you are a dyed in the wool HTML junkie it can be pretty easy, but I'm having a go at it in Dreamweaver. Dreamweaver is a BEAR! hated it when I used it years ago, its gotten slightly better but runs like Molasses on my 2.5 year old computer. VS is not nearly as troublesome on my underpowered laptop that has 1/5 the ram and a slower hard drive. But I'll keep chugging along. Everyone doing Web Dev want four types, .NET, CFMX, PHP, or J2EE (CFMX is a customized implementation of). I can't wait to get this thing working the right way.
Watched Zatoichi lastnight. What an incredibly good but gory movie. The ending is good, thats for sure. Back to more Samurai Champloo, and whatever else comes on a boring Sunday.
I've been offline for a few days now. Hurricane Frances came and went. And so did I, down to my cousins house that is. While driving through the neighborhood I saw a LOT of ficus trees had bit the dust.
These are huge non-native plants that have shallow roots. I don't know what idiot thought they were a good idea to plant down here. But chances are when you hear of a tree falling over chances are it was a ficus. They make excellent hurricane fodder because the shallow roots isn't a solid foundation. And they cost a lot of money to destroy. the roots get entangled in everything, pipes, powerlines, other trees, and even building foundations. In fact, some guy just had his house destroyed because the ficus roots got under his house and flipped it over like a coin. (While not a true, died in the wool environmentalist I did learn a few things in Broward's excellent school system.)
So the power didn't go out in my neighborhood but it did in a lot of other places. Can't wait for the cleanup to begin. How was your Labor Day weekend?
Bring it on Ivan, bring it on...